Another Yes

I was wrestling with God…yes…there was a struggle within me because of what I knew He was asking and what I knew it would require…I sat and mourned over the life that I had envisioned..I believed that I had done many things for the kingdom of God…I also believed I had obeyed and had even sacrificed more of me than I had intended…and now I feel God pulling on me and saying “what you have imagined is not what I have intended”…so my heart began to grieve…the thing He was asking costs too much…it requires time and engaging with people when I would rather be hopping on a plane and enjoying a pleasant beach and a quiet hotel room…I saw my latter days as a peaceful escape…a time to reminisce about past exploits for the kingdom..but now…God…interrupts my script and begins writing a new one…there is more…more to do…and in a very particular way..it requires another YES from me…I know Him too well to fight Him…but it is not always easy to die to the life you have created and begin to live in the one He has designed…my YES has eternal implications…and there are lives attached to my obedience…so…sisters…a YES He will get…because He knows me well enough to trust that even when I don’t always understand what He asks…I will honor His request…How about YOU?