Silent Scream

She came over right after his funeral…her friend…her co- worker..she was struggling to understand why he had made the decision to take his own life…to end his days…to permanently arrest the demons that had obviously plagued him..as we talked she tried to make sense of his desperate decision…she reflected on what she might have missed and how there was nothing obvious that told her he was in despair…then we began looking at our own lives and spoke of the moments that we found ourselves in the darkness… groping for light…when we wore the mask of contentment and in actuality were full of fear and forboding…internal chaos was the truth…the voice that everyone else heard was calm and metered…while the voice that resonated within our own hearts was a “Silent Scream“…it was the voice that kept us awake all night..and the one that was our constant companion during the day…the Silent Scream…the voice that said…”ALL IS NOT WELL“…the PAIN IS SO LOUD…it is deafening…we talked about the private struggles we both had gone through…and relived the fears of that dark tunnel…we asked..how can it be that so many are drawing this conclusion?…to end it all…we’re hearing it all too often…on the news and in our own lives…people are screaming silently…their hope is being snuffed out by the struggles of life..I pondered…what was the difference between my silent scream and theirs…the truth is…it is too complicated to give a quick…cute…packaged answer…there are so many pieces to this dark puzzle…mental health issues…isolation…lack of support….ineffective support…and sometimes not having our ears tuned into the frequency of the heart…sometimes we’re moving so fast..the silent scream is muffled…and sometimes we are in our own struggle and are so fixated on ourselves we miss the screams…as I said goodnight to my friend…I fell into my bed..grateful…that my silent scream became so loud that someone else heard it…and cared enough to tune into my frequency…and helped me find the light again…Are you tuning into the frequencies around you? Slow up…tune in…you may be able to help lead someone out of their darkness…and put and end to their “silent scream“…or maybe it’s you that’s screaming..reach out to find help to get back into the light…trust me…there is still light…and I promise you… LIFE is still worth the struggle…