Pandemic

It has taken me some time to begin writing again…because I didn’t know how or what I was feeling…

We all went from the opening and closing of each day…to…Pandemic…in an instant…the world as we knew it was literally turned on it’s axis…there was supposedly…now…a “New Normal”…which is an absolute misnomer…because there is nothing normal about this…face masks have become an accessory…”social distancing” is the way we meet…”Zoom Meetings”…are the way we connect…many of us have been quarantined for nearly three months…countless lives have been lost…sickness is everywhere…jobs have been paused or totally eliminated…food is no longer abundant…finances are fragile…and fear is palpable…you can feel it as you wait in line to enter the supermarket…you can hear it in the nervous laughter of people who desperately long to go back to what used to be…

But..in reality…we all know that… that life has gone the way of the dinosaur..it’s a wrap..no amount of praying…fasting…or “name it and claim it” will bring those days back…we have questioned God…we have tried to understand why this is happening…are we being punished for some awful thing we’ve done as a collective people? Is God angry with us? What does this all mean? Why now God?… I don’t know that any of these questions even speak to what our hearts are really feeling…nor do I think that it’s a good idea to focus our prayers there…First…I DO NOT believe that God is angry with us…if that were true…we would have had problems much sooner than this…the God that I love is full of mercy and joy…His desire is to lead His people into abundant life…but even with this knowledge..Even knowing that His very character is LOVE…I know that He can employ what is happening around us…He can put it to work…to teach us…that He ALONE is our SOURCE…that we not only NEED HIM…we NEED EACH OTHER..and the greatest lesson of all…WE CONTROL NOTHING…ABSOLUTELY…

POSITIVELY…NOTHING!!!..what I do believe is that we live in a “fallen world”..and sickness…calamity…and death…unfortunately are a part of the package…none of us are exempt from this thing called LIFE…

But this…this is a tough one…we are forced to look God squarely in the face…and say…”I need you…like I have never needed you before”…this need is different…it is a moment by moment…it is a keep my eyes kingdom focused…synchronize my ears to the sound of your voice only…it is a hold my hand when I’m losing my grip…and a season my words with faith…kind of need…that’s what it is…but…do you know something? In all this loss…there has been gain..I find myself running to Him more often…there is a greater confidence in Him…and a surrendering of my own will…growth is taking place in relationships…and the truth of who He is to me has been fully established…I have learned that less is more…and that peace is possible even in the strongest storms….yes…this is difficult…and at times seems impossible…but I keep coming back to His classroom everyday…sitting at my desk…saying…what will you teach me today? Because in all of this…I don’t just want to have survived the storm…I want to emerge better because of it…what about you?

From the end of the earth I will cry to you, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalms 61:2

2 thoughts on “Pandemic

  1. Beautifully written Elder, you’ve expressed what many feel but cannot find the words to express. Thank you for the expression of so many feelings. To God be the the glory as we continue to keep our eyes and focus on him.

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